Do you know what this thing is for? This tumblr?
As I see the little numbers tick up - the followers, the notes - do you know what it does? Maybe it gives me a happy little glow, you know. A little sparkle in my air. Maybe it feeds my hungry hungry narcissism. Maybe I’m just a tumblr slut.
But that’s not true. It isn’t. Do you know what I actually want to feel?
I want to feel special.
I want this thing to make me feel wanted.
I want to feel more beautiful than the person who rejected me.
And do you want to know a secret? Do you want to know what turning myself into a sexual object, into a picture, into someone lusted over achieves? Do you want to know what this thing really does?
This thing doesn’t do shit.
Special little snowflake, indeed.
I don’t know why this message touches me so much, but it makes me feel all weird.#personal